Catchy title, no? I thought about various things I could call this blog post when I started writing it — things like, “The Dark Hole of House Church” and “the Dangers of Housechurch” and the “Slough of Housechurch Despondency.” I finally settled on “The Housechurch Movement ruined my life” because, there’s enough truth in that to be worth titling this post that, and, I bet it will make you curious — and rightfully so.
First, let me talk about what I mean by “the Housechurch Movement.” In recent years, regular institutional-style churches have taken to calling midweek meetings that go on in homes a whole host of names, anything from “life groups” to “cell groups” but occasionally “house church” or “home church.” At any rate, these things are generally healthy and that’s not the house church movement I am talking about.
The House Church movement is a movement about leaving behind the trappings of institutional churches — such as sermons, preaching, pastors, church buildings, and everything that goes with all that, to have simple gatherings of friends in homes meeting on a very grassroots level to discuss their journey in Jesus, teach and pray with and for one another, and be a family together. Different “streams” of the house church movement do things similarly or differently and have different viewpoints on how meetings of believers function, but, in general, the main distinctions of the movement are no formal leadership, open participatory meetings, and no church buildings.
Now in and of itself, I don’t actually think any of that is wrong. If this is new to you, you might be intrigued or you might have a knee-jerk negative reaction and have a lot of objections in mind, and some are pretty common objections that I’d probably disagree with, because in many ways I am still a house church person at heart. Vast stretches of blogs on the internet are devoted to justifying and explaining the Biblical basis for doing things this way, and fending off critics that would raise an alarm at lack of leadership and/or structure. However, I’m not going to do either of those things as they are abundantly out there to read, except to say — I still have a huge love for grassroots meetings. In fact, I am a participant in a house church even at this point in my life, and it has been a wonderful blessing in my and my husband’s life.
Ok, so, have I confused you yet? (She says she has no issue with the concept of house church, and she is part of one, yet she is writing a blog about how the house church movement sucks?) Yep, even though I am part of a house church, there are so many ditches and pitfalls in the house church movement that this blog post really still needs to be written.
THE GOOD, THE BAD, and THE UGLY
The good part about house church is that if you are in a terrible, blood-sucking, depressing institutional church situation, the house church movement is one place in Christendom that will tell you God still loves you and you’re not sinning if you stop going to church. It tells you that you don’t even need to go to church at all, that church is wherever two or three are gathered, so if you have a friend or two you can fellowship with, you are just fine. Short-term, this is freeing and life-giving to many people who need to know they are free from religious obligations to defunct church systems and are going somewhere they hate going thinking that God requires them to attend something. Short term, it is good to have the freedom to walk away from things that aren’t working and not be buffeted by soft-spoken condemnations such as “but you should stay and make this horrible church better” when you are totally not in a position to do so.
But long-term, and by that I mean longer than the [half year to two years or so] time it takes to clear one’s head and recover from a bad church experience, it’s not good to dig in one’s heals about not going to church, because we’re all made for community with others and after a while spiritual isolation becomes really traumatic all by itself. This is even more true if you are a single person hoping to find a Christian spouse, or, if you are a parent hoping to raise children excited about being followers of Jesus. Hundreds if not thousands of people out there on the internet pride themselves in “being the church” instead of “going to church” and while the freedom not to be imprisoned in some religious system of things is meaningful, the tendency is to end up feeling really doctrinally correct but oh so isolated.
Many of those thousands of out-of-church people in the house church movement, including me under the influence of house church dogma, desperately WANT fellowship, but are encouraged to hold out with occasional fellowship with a few friends while waiting for the utopian dream of a real, bonafide, healthy house church in their area — or moving to another area of the country to find one.
You wouldn’t have known how isolated I felt — or others feel — by the way we defend our out-of-church circumstance to well-meaning Christians (by whom I considered myself “attacked”) who naively seem bewildered by a brother or sister who refuses to participate in a regular church. When years roll on being alone and fellowshipping only online or occasionally with the two or three friends in an 100 mile radius one has that echo their own viewpoint becomes one’s entire experience of life in the body of Christ, it can be very bad for one’s spiritual progression. This slowly becomes as toxic and damaging both emotionally, socially, and spiritually as any bad situation one may have left behind.
And here’s the rub — I know too many people, myself having been one for too much of my life — who were so critical of how church should or shouldn’t Biblically function that we ended up in the wilderness for years on end, suffering needlessly in isolation while we convinced ourselves that we were loving the body of Christ while holding out for this ideal way of meeting with believers, and refusing to become involved with any group of Christians that weren’t doing it right. I didn’t realize it but this had become a false robe of righteousness for me, my “right” ideas about how the church should function — and I was encouraged by others in the movement that I was suffering for being on the right path. This was such a lie, and I wasted years of my life believing it… I left one negative system to end up in a psychological nightmare worse as bad as any system out there.
(And as a single person, it may have been the single most important factor in delaying me getting married until my forties, something that some people might choose willingly but with my hopes of having children, I did not.)
TOO FOCUSED ON A TWO HOUR MEETING
Church is minimally two hours a week – yet the house church movement makes things seem like what happens in this two hour block of time is the be-all of God’s concern for His people – the “ultimate intention” he has for His bride on Earth. When I bought into that idea, I found a great house church that did everything right — for those two hours. We had amazing meetings under the headship of Christ, open participation and all. But I need up scratching my head at how we could have such great meetings and yet, almost no community during the other 166 hours of the week. I stayed way too long in a soul-killing situation, because I believed what really mattered was how great this church was at having a good meeting.
I finally realized that it doesn’t matter how great or how lousy the church structure is — what really ends up mattering is the fabric of community the rest of the week. Since then, I’ve also scratched my head at institutional churches I visited with that were horribly restrictive and exercises in sheer boredom for two hours, yet during the rest of the week people were spending time with each other, praying with each other, helping each other with life, being real friends and community. I’ve marveled at God’s humor at juxtaposing these two situations in my life, almost to get me to ponder which is better or worse in His sight, until I realized that I was too busy trying to figure out what kind of church God approved of, and that this was a pretty legalistic way to think when the reality is that the best church is the one where I was growing the most with God and with others.
Yet, the House Church movement was all about Christ being the Head of His people but I started to realize — the Holy Spirit moves more among a group of folks who meet in a church building every week but know how to be family all week long, than a bunch of religiously prideful house churchers who have the perfect meeting for two hours on Sunday but never see each other otherwise. Christ is interested in being the head of His people for all 168 hours of the week, not just a two hour meeting.
AND….THE VARIOUS EXPERTS OF HOUSECHURCH DON’T KNOW WHAT THEY ARE DOING
The obsession on meetings and getting them right doesn’t just detract from what goes on during the rest of the week, but it also keeps housechurches from meaningfully getting off the ground to begin with. The internet is full of people trying to start their own housechurch that are begging someone to come teach them “how to have a meeting” with no one leading (except Christ, of course.) This gets really paradoxical, with the ideal being to start something, but of course it can’t be you that starts something, it has to be Christ, so you constantly have to make sure you aren’t doing anything while partnering with Christ to do something, but of course that happens through you (and through others who have to make sure they aren’t doing anything either — ESPECIALLY not leading anything.). It turns out to be a lot of work to make sure you aren’t doing anything while doing things yet not you but Christ in you. A lot of work indeed, to the point of being confusing, which is why you might need an expert who also isn’t doing anything but is somehow also an expert at teaching you to not do anything except to let Christ do things, to come help you learn how to be better at not doing anything while doing something — yet not you, nor them.
I still see people in house church discussion groups asking “how to have a meeting without having anyone lead it” and “how do people with a teaching gift get an opportunity to use their gift without taking over the meeting” and I am realizing this movement ties people in knots, telling them to pull off paradoxical things because of being so afraid that anything a human does might replace Christ being the head of a gathering. Christ is most fully the head of a gathering when everyone is raised up to be who they fully are — pastors, prophets, teachers, worship leaders, poem readers, intercessors, evangelists, artists… and we’re too busy crucifying each other’s gifts in the name of Christ than to really see what it means to have all the parts of the body truly functioning in Him and He in them. Some of the teaching in the movement is so anti “doing” in the name of not being works oriented and learning to sit at Jesus’s feet that it was completely disorienting to me as a young adult trying to figure out what to “do” with my life. Only now in my 40s am I starting to recover and too much time was wasted.
People who have written books and lead conferences will volunteer to come and teach your group how have a meeting with no one leading, but often the “model” of how to do housechurch often is restrictive and strangles things that would bring life to the group. One model is intensely performance oriented — you join for a year and either spawn another group in that year, or you are kicked out. Another model replaces all the songs sung in your housechurch TO Jesus with songs that emphasize who you collectively are as the bride of Christ together, so that musical worship time no longer really focuses on Christ as much as on us, who are the bride of Christ. (I personally found this hard to get into very much — it was just too distracting for me from the One I wanted to worship.)
Also, there are some house church experts who ban musicial instruments during singing because anyone playing a guitar would be “too much of a leader” in a fiercely leaderless movement. As a result, singing worship songs often loses something that only an instrument can provide, and its not a small thing that gets lost. I understand that the opposite excess is often true in the institutional church — music becomes flashy, pre-packaged, overly hyped, etc. But when humble people with instruments play worship music from their hearts, and do so in a way that is sensitive and open to non-instrumentalists offering words and prayers, I’ve seen an amazingly beautiful thing. Yet many house churches are so afraid of someone leading they never experience how the Holy Spirit can move among people in that type of musical setting. And while a very common way that people learn how to tune into the voice of the Spirit is through experiences they have during musical worship and prayer, this process doesn’t occur as easily in house churches that are afraid of musical instruments.
The irony is that while I was full of house church dogma, I still listened to recorded worship music with instruments on CD or live streaming. I was afraid to be part of “the system” yet the music of “the system” I was drawn to in my private worship. God would touch me deeply through the voices of my brothers and sisters singing to Him in institutional churches and institutional church conferences, yet I squelched my desire to be part of that whole scene (and my talents and desire to make music and lead others in worship) because my doctrine didn’t allow for it, even though it edified me both to play for others and to be in environments where others were playing. I understand that there is hype, and bad music, and annoying shows, and yes, I understand that “worship is what you do with your life, it’s not music…” which people in the movement are so fond of saying, but the fact is something very edifying happens when people make music together to God, and the institutional church has led the way in this. But some of the house church models out there actively shut people out from this.
ORGANIC AND NON-ORGANIC THINGS WERE MEANT TO HAVE A RELATIONSHIP
When I was young, I planted a garden and refused to stake the tomatoes because I wanted them to be natural. Most of them rotted into the earth they were laying on. I think this is a good analogy for my experience in the movement. Organic things often work hand in hand with non-organic things and a tomato stake does not take away from the organic growth of a tomato; it only enhances it. Some structures that people invent for church life as they gather are not harmful, they only enhance the ability of people to function together — but in the house church mindset I was infected with could only condemn those things. I do think people need to be set free from narrow-minded leaders who want to micromanage things and don’t know how to make room for the Spirit to flow and people to function as a body. But in my time in the movement, I believed all structure of any sort was wrong, and this kept me from being part of structures that would have been healthy and helpful to me and others.
The house church movement emphasizes listening to the Holy Spirit and being led by the Lord, but one time I had a dream where the Lord was talking to me about gatherings and boomed the word “STRUCTURE” all through me to where I still felt it burning as I woke up, but I was so blinded by my Housechurch dogma at the time that I could barely accept this. I wish I had accepted it sooner.
HYBRID CHURCH MODELS
Hierloom tomatoes are good, but hybrid tomatoes have a lot of benefits, and the same is true in my experience of organic church life. These days I am still part of a housechurch, but it’s a group that doesn’t fit most of the desciptions I have shared above. It’s a very alive, happening group but there are two main leaders who drive it forward. They’re not afraid to be leaders and I haven’t gone to war against them being leaders as I might have in the past when I was a house church purist. In my experience over 20 years of house churching, the healthiest groups I have seen that didn’t fizzle out in a few months to a couple years, and that didn’t seem to grow stagnant, were groups that were hybrids between organic church and institutional church. They were groups that didn’t shut themselves off from the institutional church — they either had healthy relationships with other churches, even institutional ones — or they were an institutional church that decided to transition into being an organic open housechurch. All of the groups I have seen thrive over time had people in them with strong leading personalities; and they used their personalities to build up others to also be leaders and teachers in the group. I’ve even been to house churches where our entire group together would visit an institutional church, to keep the lines of communication flowing, and to receive of whatever importation of the Lord was in their midst. Last week, an institutional church we have a relationship with sent us a photo of their entire congregation praying for our little group.
House church claims to champion the priesthood of all believers and a passion for us all being part of the body of Christ, with Him alone as the head. But what I got sucked into was an elitist, divisive movement that was full of pride, and I drank the full cup of that. Instead of it helping me honor the body of Christ more, it cut me off from the body of Christ and took years of my life where I spun in circles trying to get some sense of how to connect in more meaningful ways than internet groups to others in the body. It stole my chances to find a mate while young. When the Lord spoke to me about doing missions work, it took at least a decade longer than it probably needed to be for me to do anything with that because I was disconnected from a support base and people who would have championed my way forward. (In fact, many in the housechurch movement actively dissuaded and even condemned me for my interest in overseas missions as being something too religious and unnecessary in their point of view.) It took a long time to realize that I need the body of Christ and people around me who love the same Lord I love, whether they are in an institution or not, and that the institution is not all bad.
When I think back on it, the things that catapulted my growth in the Lord the most were the times I went against my own house church convictions and sat momentarily under the teaching of some pastor or leader or institutional conference speaker and had the Lord give me some revelation or insight that yes, He could have given me directly because I also have the Holy Spirit, but for some reason, didn’t. He seems to appreciate using the gift of teaching for whatever reason, and one of the reasons is probably to make us depend on each other, priesthood of believers notwithstanding. Even so, I was so afraid of the institutional church for so long (and not because it had harmed me, but because my dogma said it was foul and unclean) that I stayed away too long from something that may very well have been a good place to plant my garden, and a good way to stake my tomatoes and bring forth a bounty of fruit in my life to the Lord. I hope that others who read this will read it not to condemn the house church movement, but to not be sucked down by it’s blind dogma into a pit of isolation and pride that has the potential to steal meaningful years of co-laboring and fellowship from one’s life in the body of Christ.
April 19, 2019 at 11:46 am
WOW! Double high 5, Sister! You have encapsulated in a few words what I’ve been pondering for the last few years. Thank you!
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April 19, 2019 at 11:58 am
Thanks for the post. I just listened to the audiobook of Braving the Wilderness by Brebe Brown. I think you would enjoy it.
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April 19, 2019 at 1:07 pm
Heather, thanks for this. I hope it can help many to avoid the traps we fell into!
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April 19, 2019 at 1:09 pm
I also came from a strong “either or” church ethic. I did some time in big Christianity until I retreated from the impersonal feel of it and vied instead for home-grown approaches. But then, in small groups, I got tired of the exclusive claims that always led to isolation and pride.
In the years since, I have tried experimenting with hybrid models, extracting the benefit of each. Personally, my church life has never been better. Though I am a pastor, and thus one of those dreaded “leaders,” the organic emphasis reminds me the highest rank in the body of Christ is “brother, or sister,” and to work not on an organization, but the health of community and our universal priesthood. This has made our church into something that still looks structurally recognizable to the rest of the church world, but on the communal level, something distinctly different, imperfect, but rewarding.
One thing I haven’t been able to avoid…being seen as a sell-out to the house folks, while on the other hand, seeming weird to those who embrace a full-on system approach. Thankfully, I suppose it isn’t about what everybody else thinks.
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April 19, 2019 at 4:08 pm
Hi, Heather. Someone posted this on RoundTable.
There are a lot of varieties of things that (IMO) could be classified as ‘house church movement’ including church planting movements that do have actual leaders who wouldn’t really promote some of the philosophies you described. Many of the Southeast HC conference speakers around the turn of this century were very much into following the Bible and not as much into being organic, though you get all kinds in attendance I suppose. A lot of the house church planters display leadership skills, too.
But there is also this hyper-organic hyper-egalitarian philosophy where house church is about being organic, rather than about following God’s word.
A lot of movements get into extremes of certain philosophy. Early Friends/Quakers, a house church movement, were so into being against ritual that they did not water baptize and do not now (as far as I know) make an attempt at practicing the Lord’s Supper. There are the hypergrace people who are so into all their future sins being forgiven that they explain away ‘and if he hath committed sins, they shall be forgiven him’ and ‘confess your faults one to another and pray one for another that ye may be healed.’ There are WOFers teachers who insist God never makes anyone sick even though the BIble tells us He put sicknesses upon the Egyptians.
We have to be careful about following some extreme philosophy that goes against what Jesus has taught and what God has revealed as His will for us. In the HC movement, one of those philosophies is a hyper-organic, anti-leader, anti-institutional perspective. These things can be taken to an unhealthy extreme.
I went through a period of frustration with the IC when I started to learn about some of these things about church in the BIble, but I never went totally IC. Many IC ‘pastors’ have gifts that edify the body of Christ.
Thanks for sharing about your journey.
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April 19, 2019 at 4:39 pm
Love you tomato analogies!
ISTM that we need to balance our relationships with all three Persons of the Trinity. If we do, we will find that the Father teaches us about the structure we need; the Son shows us what fellowship and mission are about, and the Spirit gives us the energy to relate and serve. If it’s rude/wrong to ignore or marginalize human beings, how much worse is it to do so to God? We get into trouble in living out our faith if we don’t connect with all Three.
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April 19, 2019 at 4:56 pm
Beth, what beautiful revelation of the impartation of the Father, Son and Spirit. I never heard that or saw it that way, but that resonates. Thanks for sharing that! I need to read back over that a few times and meditate on it.
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April 19, 2019 at 9:17 pm
Reblogged this on James' Ramblings.
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April 19, 2019 at 9:21 pm
Heather , very powerful. Thankyou
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April 20, 2019 at 12:46 am
This! Thank you for sharing. I’m kinda borderline between church structure and organic fellowship. I never knew that there were names to it because it was just feelings and an experience to me and no one to talk to it about. This is so good. I wish there was some type of counseling for this type of stuff.
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April 20, 2019 at 1:23 am
Thank you for this timely heartfelt piece of writing. It is an insightful reminder to those of us who have functioned as his body within the Institutional Church but have moved or are desiring to move from there to a more organic early church expression of how the body should function: There are dangers and pitfalls along the way. I know the Bible tells us that in Christ all things are possible, but I have to wonder sometimes if Jesus prayed an “impossible” prayer when he prayed to his Father that we would be one even as he and his Father are one. Look at us! We are so divisive and sectarian. Being a preachers kid I was almost literally born within the institutional church. The Lord in time moved us towards an OC mindset, but you have reminded me that it remains an incumbent upon me to continue to see all my brothers and sisters in Christ here in our town are one body, in Christ. Sacrificial love is what the world is looking for. And it is what we need for our brothers and sisters in our local communities whether they are within or without whatever we may think is the “best” biblical model for doing and being his body, his ecclesia. May his will be done so that we may be one. May we lay aside our “better way of doing things” if it gets in the way of simply loving one another. We are one family. “Let us love one another, for love is from God. Everyone who loves is born of God and knows God.” May we let it be so the world can see His glory.
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April 20, 2019 at 8:44 am
When looking at any proposition or viewpoint, it’s vital to get God’s point of view and discernment… and not just be swayed in the moment by merely human opinion thinking + emotions. 😉
Though I disagree with some of her opinions, others are worth sharing. 😉
following a particular Dogma instead of the Spirit usually means trouncing on anyone not following YOUR particular dogma. including THIS ONE! 😉
Elitism is a poison not from God. He’s all about LOVE. of EVERYONE. this includes ALL FORMS of so-called ‘christian’ elitism. 😉
We’ve all been trained + programmed from birth to follow the human and the human system instead of God.
whenever we think we have God’s one holy right way + method we need to check ourselves with the Spirit! whenever we think we can acheive God’s goals with merely human means we need to check ourselves with the Spirit!
Separation may not be as negative as she suggests and concludes, but it DOES have inbuilt costs and benefits… benefits like becoming non religious and non performance that can’t be learned any other way. 😉
it may actually spur us on to connect + interact more with the world Jesus loves + came to redeem instead of us hiding out in + being dependent on ‘christian’ enclaves.
Of course limiting yourself to a smaller or nonexistent group means cutting yourself off from the resources of the large group. duh!
It also means cutting yourself off for MINISTRY OPPORTUNITIES to the larger church group people. ( of course those opportunities are largely blocked by the program and hierarchy of the larger group, a lot of which is garbage which must be endured to reach the opportunities to truly minister outside the program, efforts which are often resisted by the hierarchy. ) ( and maybe we could be looking for ministry OUTSIDE the church building / program. )
Relying on current not-as-bad leadership continues our dependence and addiction to human leadership and hierarchy instead of God. It perpetuates the false system institution and community which is built on conformity + program instead of Love.
All human leadership is transitory. A better leader can be replaced or removed at any time by a worse.
Paul was horrified with the man following divisions that had begun at corinth. Today we take man following as the normal good and Godly way to do things.
Her end + heart-felt solution + conclusion is compromise. Possibly a fleshly compromise with fleshly motivations to a fleshly system. sometimes our flesh delights in a fleshly compromise way out of avoiding the hard narrow less-populated way. sometimes we are swayed more by emotion than by logic + reason… or The Spirit. 😉 ( some could equally label me the same way! 😉 )
we ALL KNOW + SEE in part, but HE KNOWS THE FULLNESS! 😉
follow the Spirit, for whatever He leads you to do will enliven you 😉
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April 20, 2019 at 5:05 pm
See, Chad, your comment shows the poison I am talking about in this entire blog post. You have made a religion out of organic church. When you speak of working with institutional churches as “compromise with the flesh” you display the very attitude of religiosity that is so damaging. It’s about religious “purity” to have zero structure, and any form of structure means that the “flesh” has been involved. This black and white “you’re either all in or your in compromise” attitude shows you’ve made a law out of being organic, and it is the poison.
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April 21, 2019 at 12:20 pm
Very thought provoking. At the end of the day, the Word of God is a person (Jesus Christ)… who is directing our individual and collective steps.
Ecclesiastes 7:18 KJVS
It is good that thou shouldest take hold of this; yea, also from this withdraw not thine hand: for he that feareth God shall come forth of them all.
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April 21, 2019 at 7:31 pm
Thank you, Heather, for this post!
I [20M] have been going to institutional churches all my life and have attempted starting a “house church” (bible study/life group) several times; currently, my most successful attempt has been one that has combined structure (3-4 weeks of conventional church-like meetings with half hour of worship, intro prayer, collective bible reading and discussion, and outro prayer) with monthly unstructured outings (i.e. a hiking trip down to Crystal Cove in SoCal) with people in my community that I do life with, people I consider friends and don’t even remotely mind hanging out with multiple times during the year. I feel that it is a beautiful balance between structure and fun/freestyle stuff, so it’s great. I appreciate your exhortation and encouragement throughout your article for leaders of these group meetings to actually lead. I’ve got a wonderful co-leader [32F] who helps me with suggesting improvements and giving me feedback after every meeting, and it’s incredibly healthy; even though so far the group is only typically comprised of 6-8 people, rather than my ideal goal of 30, it’s very healthy and I am very glad it is happening. Thank you for your article! I’ve only read about a dozen of your articles, but I really appreciate your diverse viewpoints. Blessings! David
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April 24, 2019 at 2:04 am
Reblogged this on The Wild Frontier and commented:
Heather Goodman over at “All Things Are Yours” has written a great post about the pitfalls of the house church movement. The title is intentionally dramatic, but don’t be put off by it. The article is very balanced, something that is quite rare, in my experience.
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January 24, 2022 at 4:44 pm
Thanks Heather for sharing your thought provoking piece. . I put my housechurch reflections and challenges in this letter, I hope you find helpful, even useful: https://andrebaard.com/open-letter-to-the-housechurch-movement-in-south-africa/
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